The painful pleasure

I am enjoying this pain in love.And want to keep this wound fresh in safe place in my heart. I'll keep scratching the scab and feel the painful pleasure. If I had got success in love I'd have been very poor & would be indulging in it but now I am rich because I have got ocean of experience. If she was with me I might get angry with her, scold her but now I will only be loving her with no complaint an eternal love!