There is Thin Line of Demarcation Between Doctor and Dacoit

I have felt that the world of hospital is one of  the most awkward. In beginning, almost everyone feels as the saddest one, but at the same time they can see some other patients more serious and soon it becomes difficult to reach at a concrete conclusion about who is the saddest one.
            Sense of duty overcomes sense of shame. You might have to clean private parts of your patient as a caretaker. You have to help him/her change inner wears. You have to collect his/her urine and stool to throw in toilet time and again and you become mechanical body having no shame to do that. You forget shame. I remember one of my closest relatives doing all that for his father. I couldn't help saluting him from the core of my heart. He is younger than me but his duty made him great in my view. In today's world, many so called advanced and educated children leave their parents helpless and alone. I hope he will always take care of his parents as he did. 

Different kinds of diseases and different kinds of patients are found here. Not only this but also we can hear giggling of happiness on birth at some corner and crying on the death at another corner in the same hospital. Hospital can give you any experience and every experience. It is entirely different world. 

Some rich patient's family can become poor instantly in hospital. Because the disease doesn't only make the patient weak but also it makes the whole family weak physically, emotionally and economically as well.

In one way it makes people forget hierarchical status because all the patients have to suffer physically and mentally, either boss of any company or guard of same company. It can be a place of penance and regret too. Hospital can help us look at death more closely. But, for this same uncertain, mean life we cheat, fight, insult, even kill other people. Is this worth living? Are we really human being? Does it suit a simple human being? This is the place which can make you helpless no matter how rich you are. And more over you will be enraged especially when you have to wait for something like doctor or  test report etc. esp.when your patient is serious. It makes you feel as if you have been waiting for ages.

Actually there is a thin invisible line of demarcation to determine doctor or dacoit.

 The doctor can play role of great savior or s/he can play the role of dacoit or satan. This is true that all the doctors are not bad but it is also true that all the doctors are not good either. But you are left with little choice. Sometimes you have no choice at all and you have to follow the same killer doctors even if you know the fact. 

In our region we can find mainly two types of hospitals one is government run hospitals where you can find less doctors, more dirt, no rules and regulations. Some doctors from here are found in personal clinic or in private hospitals for earning a lot of money immorally. Most of the doctors have power and money but no sincerity. Most of the time they want to make money.

Private hospitals provide great and some unnecessary facilities and take big amount from the patient. Most of the doctors from here take high charge. They may not give patient an appropriate chance to explain their discomfort but they hurry to see large number of patients in little time. 

That's why nobody wants to see a doctor or a hospital but s/he has to see them when it is determined by the unknown power. 

We Naturally Act Against Nature

We naturally act against nature.

We believe to be nature's best creature.

Although we love to take rest and sleep more.

Nature wants early to open eyes' door.

One says, life means - eat, drink and be merry.

"Much food and drink may not make you merry;

Taking too much rest may prove toughest test;

Many diseases may make you a jest."

We feel happy after we get happiness.

She says"Be happy to get more happiness."

Law of attraction makes it possible.

If our subconscious takes as reasonable.

We think we'll get confident after we win.

She says,"First be confident, you'll always win."

Some of the greatest books have made this claim.

The winners experience is also same.

- Pavan Kumar Karna

Lower Secondary English Teacher

Organ Donation

Once, I will have to die.
And bid the world bye bye.
If my organ fits one,
I'll do the donation.

Once my body will burn.
And my organs will turn
Into ash; all in vain,
Why should I do abstain?

Let me live little more.
Let me open new door
Of compassion and love.
Let me make myself dove.

Single sign on paper
Will make their life better.
No worship no sacrifice
Will make the world Paradise.

If Conspiracy Theory is True

If conspiracy theory is true;

The world is going to look blue.

In the race of super power,

You are making corpses' tower.

As the world is lacking leaders;

You call each other the breeders

Of Biological weapon;

You became the dreadful demon.

We all could unite for the world;

But you failed us all, when it whirled;

You are dirty politicians;

Having disgusting ambitions.

Cause you set fire in other's home.

You are also burning your dome.

 As you sowed so are you reaping.

Now rule the corpses, there heaping.

- Pavan Kumar Karna

Corona As Nature's Reaction

Is it because of nature's wrath?

For taking unnatural path.

If we all had been united,

Corona'd have been defeated.

But it has taught us lots of things,

Use water, soap than tissue's rings;

Maintain Physical distancing,

Rather than social distancing.

Avoid junks and take healthy food;

For natural food make your mood.

Follow everyday doctors' task;

For your welfare, always use mask.

Develop your immunity

To save human community;

If we can't abide by nature

It may not save human creature.

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- Pavan Kumar Karna

Corona as Nature's Reaction

The Boy Smiles out of Agony

At the corner of the way turning left
In a house - I often see almost
An eleven years old boy
Sitting on a chair, staring at the ceiling
Continuously, saliva falling out of his mouth,
Flies flying and gathering around.

The Boy Smiles out of Agony
As if mocking the so-called Omnipresent
Omnipotent and Omniscient God.

As if asking - what is my fault?
If it is outcome of sins of my past life,
Do I remember them?
Is it your justice to punish me without my knowledge of those sins?

The vacant charmless eyes have number of questions.
The mother still has rural - love
Urban love may take the boy as a burden.

The mother invests all her life
To cure him.
This courage itself is a victory
Of a mother
And defeat of the cruel god.

-Pavan Kumar Karna.
pavansusil@gmail.com

Madhesh Movement is Against Racial Attitude

Madheshi leaders and party cadres are saying that this movement is against state, but that is only partly true because this movement can't be solved by the government only. We have found almost no big parties serious about it yet because they don't even dare to talk about demarcation of states including two Madhesh states. Rather, they have their own interest against Madheshi people. That's why they are still trying to avoid or defame or utilize the ongoing madhesh movement for their benefit.
              A strong back force of the present government is a group of ultra nationalists who support K.P. Oli-led government against Madheshis because their mind is filled with the opinion that all the madheshis are Indians whereas  all the area of Madhesh is Nepal. Let me ask simple question - who were the people living in the Bhuddha's and Janak's Kingdom? Weren't they the native Madheshis? How can any sensible person deny the native people from their nation?  These anti-madheshi, ultra nationalists believe that many Indians immigrated to Madhesh, they calculate the percentage of the growth of population in last hundred or fifty years of Madhesh exaggerating such a way as if no madheshi gave birth to any child. And count them all as immigrants. These ultra nationalists don't know that many of the immigrants were also necessity of Nepal that time. Because many of them were educated too, so they worked here and in long run they lived in Nepal legally. And even if they stayed illegally then the khas-gorkhali should be held responsible for this because they have been driving the nation holding high posts and positions to enjoy the power to give citizenship to them. And not only this, even larger number of population of pahadi people immigrated from north hill to terai which they never mention to what some madheshi politicians and scholars say internal colonisation and encroachment.
           Those ultra nationalists have ill intentions and ill motives to drive madheshi natives to India. The general concept of these people is that those who speak Nepali with Hindi accent or only speak Maithali, Bhojpuri, Abadhi etc are Indians, so they should be misbehaved, insulted and made fun of with some stereotype names like Bhaiya, Dhoti, etc. How long should Madheshis suffer social, political discrimination and psychological torture in Nepal? Here, not only poor, uneducated villagers of Madhesh are misbehaved but also educated and high class Madheshi officers are suffering same pain of insults and misbehavior directly or indirectly which either they avoid as if they haven't heard or they hide to divulge for the sake of their prestige and dignity of their position. In recent days our ex-president and ex vice-president have directly or indirectly divulged their plight to which no big media or government gave any serious attention either. Because they both are Madheshis and this can't be coincidental. As we know some poor Indians esp. from Bihar have also been working in Kathmandu. But, is that the proper reason to insult them? Are there not hundreds of thousand Nepali working in India as well?
       Many Khas-Gorkhali politicians and ultra nationalists have a paranoia that a lot of Indians will enter in Nepal and try to get Nepali citizenship. But thinking it logically will make you feel pity on intellectual bankruptcy of those ultra nationalists. In India almost all the goods are far cheaper than in Nepal; fuel and even motorbikes, cars and other vehicles are far cheaper. And the salary that Indian job holders get is almost twice as much or even more than that in Nepal. And not only this but also value of Indian currency is higher in Nepal ie. Rs.100/- IC ( Indian Currency) is equal to Rs. 160/- NC (Nepali Currency.) Then why would Indian citizen try to be Nepali?
                 Though few other cases are also there, Once I asked a vendor who runs a small business on a cart of four cycle wheels who sells chana chatpati, paanipuri etc. He told me that he is from Motihari, Bihar. He is here because Delhi or Mumbai is too far from his home in comparison of Kathmandu and he needs to go home frequently in gap of only few months. So living in Kathmandu is easier for them. But does it prove that they want to be Nepali citizen and even if some want, what is wrong if they go lawfully? And Why don't you compare the number of Nepali Citizen to legally become Indian Citizen?
     These ultra nationalists are extremely poor in logic if you ask why only people of certain hilly castes esp. Gorkhali - Khas Brahmin/kshetri should be Nepali. They will perhaps say that they are descendants of Valiant Gorkhali. But the big question is that- Is the nation property of only these Khas- Gorkhali? Or should all Nepali call themselves to be Gorkhali? And the apparently clear answer is -NO. As new term has come to the ground is that Nepal is a multinational country. Except Madheshi people many other groups of people in Nepal are in illusion that they are descendants of so called valiant Gorkhali. I was shocked once, when I heard some madheshi students calling themselves descendants of valiant Gorkhali in a stage program in one of the schools I taught in terai. It must be Nepali or social teacher of that school who might have either written in the script of that mini drama or they might have misguided the students in classroom because they are Pahadi Brahmins. Those non-Gorkhali who adopted their identity as Gorkhali are comparatively in better position in Nepal than Madheshi people. But if you go to deeper level you will find that only Kathmandu was called Nepal earlier, so on that basis only Newars of  Kathmandu are Nepali. The Khas - Gorkhali adopted Nepali identity later but ironically they marginalised same Newars who not only lost their state but also identity.
      They are pseudo nationalists because they try to show their love towards the nation while a true nationalist doesn't even try to show but they really love their country unlike exhibitionists do. They use foreigner products. They watch Hindi and English movies, they sing Hindi and English songs. They watch hindi serials. They start their days with hindi prayers of God, even they brush with indian products and with same mouth they ungratefully abuse India. Once they won a football game against India and shouted a slogan " We won dhoti" which didn't let Madheshi  share the happiness rather hurt them. If we can't unite and keep on upsetting a whole race then how can we be united like true nationalists?
              The infamous term in Kathmandu "manu makhu marsya kha" (meaning - not a human but madheshi) by newars is the representative attitude of most of the  Pahadi community as observed in Nepal. And this is a proof that suggest to what extent Madheshis were misbehaved and insulted. How can they be called civilized who have this much hatred towards a certain race? Why not to call them racist who doesn't accept existence of other than their own?
         I take these movements to be against attitudes of anti-madheshi sentiment. This anti madheshi sentiment is the basic reason to push madheshi to be attracted towards making separate Madhesh Nation. But still many so-called pseudonationalists are not ready to accept and correct their attitudes and behavior rather they are forcing madheshis to stop movement and accept their regressive constitution and reversely blaming them of hatching conspiracy of secession.
           Madhesh issue seems to be used as a strong means or ladder for Deuwa and Prachanda to be Prime ministers. But they can't be 100% trusted either, because their parties had equally participated in drafting this regressive constitution. Immense pressure should be put on his government because ultimately any government must solve this issue.
                  It looks like some so-called top leaders anyhow try to be prime minister in Nepal only to get their name enlisted in the record of history and probably to get life long facilities and security for future from Nepal government turn by turn. And not only this but also Nepalese politicians make agreement in advance for the post of prime minister. They are never serious towards nation let alone Madhesh.
           If there was award systems for worst prime minister like in Bollywood which awards the worst movie of the year. KP Oli would have certainly won this award; perhaps because he is the biggest incapable prime minister in the history of Nepal. He only tries to distribute dreams in frivolous manner like - to fit the pipeline of LPG gas in each kitchen of Nepal, to produce electricity from air, to facilitate Kathmandu with modern train which has pointed face, to buy ship and use in Pacific ocean etc are the most expensive dreams distributed so cheaply. He is trying to ignore Madhesh Movement and misguide public.
          Madheshis have got deep wound in their heart which seems to have damaged the proximity and understanding between Madheshi and Pahadi that is when people of Hilll and Mountain are in trouble because of earthquake, Madheshis are trying to help them by all means but when Madheshis were being shot in head and heart with bullets in Madhesh movement they were celebrating Dipawali in the name of successful promulgation of the regressive constitution.
             It seems that these so-called nationalists have still illusion that they are omnipotent and omniscient but they don't know that it takes no time for a wound to be cancer if it is not  cured at right time. What I mean is if they keep on ignoring and betraying Madhesh then there is high risk of secession of Madhesh. So, correct your attitude and behavior. Face it. Try to solve it. If you are not going to compromise how can you expect protesters to compromise?